Why do you regret over things that have passed? Why are you always, ALWAYS like this? "If only... if only..." Don't you get tired of these two words? Do they do you any good? How far can you proceed if you keep thinking about the past? Why can't you just move on? You always say, "The human's eyes are built to stare to the front, so we shouldn't look back", but why are you contradicting yourself and doing something the complete opposite? You must be like drama, yeah?
Sometimes I really hate you... you gave yourself such an unpleasant teenage life and now you keep complaining about it. So? What else can you do? Oh, just move on! You have decades and decades to go. If you start complaining about life's incessant deficiencies, how are you going to endure the ongoing tides that are about to come? You'll just render yourself in dead ends...
For goodness' sake, just wake up already!!
