Burnout

Hahaha I just learnt a new word - burnout! I never knew the meaning until the lecturer told me about it in tutorial. It means studying until the degree where nothing more can go into your brain. I think I am at this stage right now. Finished Introduction To Human Resource Management yesterday and surprisingly, I reckon I did better than I expected. Most of the questions were already discussed at the tutorial classes, so basically I knew all the answers already.

I have Business Organisation paper in four days' time, and I haven't really had the confidence to do well. It's funny, because considering I had always done well in Economics subject, now I'm worried about Business Organisation, which is actually similar to Economics. It seems harder than I thought, and there are like 500 terms' definitions that I have to remember. Heck, some of them aren't even important to begin with. >.<

I just managed to have some time to slack off yesterday and started to study a little bit today, even though it isn't progressing so well, with DBSK as the distraction. LOL... one day, I'll have to study until my butt rot.

I guess I'm just really envious, because mom just told me that one of her friends' son got a full scholarship to study and work in England. Holly crap! That is like my dream!!! You don't know how desperate I am to have a better life. Not complaining that I'm leaving like hell now, but we could live better! I want to let my parents work less harder now, so... yeah, you get my drift.

One thing I really hate about applying scholarship is the long and boring process. I applied for one scholarship before and it took me like a week to get everything done... only to know that I didn't get the scholarship. SUCK! It's good that I didn't get called up for interview, because you know my nerves get me very easily. I'd wreck up everything.

Alright, wish me luck! I have like 50% confidence that I can do well, judging on my past experiences. Hehehe...

Soak me in colours

Wow it's been a month exactly ever since the last time I posted. I can't help it because I am extremely busy lately. I just finished like a gazillion of tests and presentations in a go, and I'm very exhausted. Unfortunately, there isn't any much time left for me to slack off. Exam is around the corner in two weeks' time, and yeah, I haven't OFFICIALLY start to revise. God knows if I could even manage to grab a B this semester. The load is too heavy! I have like 100KG of information to be stored into my mind until May.

Well, to de-stress myself I went back to Photoshopping again. I'm not posting my newest production but I'm really happy to Photoshop. It just lets my mind stray off from my studies and god, how tranquil it is to see those colours floating around. I've learnt new techniques and tried out different stuff, and I'm so glad to see people commenting that I've improved (although I give the sincerity of these words the benefit of doubts).

I feel like crying my eyes out again, because, apparently I realise that is the best way I could do to lessen the pressure on me.